I never realised it wasn’t a game Until she whispered I had won Scars run deep from the battles lost Scenes destroyed with what we’d done We both knew this day was near We both knew we’d end up broken As we held our voices in our throats The pressure tripped an explosion The burgeoning empire we destroyed This battlefield created desolation Back where the grass grew green Before an eruption tore more than relations Now wars past and the cities rebuilt Look at all we have to show for Infrastructure and chiselled memories Of a time when we once went to war
We lie undercovers And hope the truth isn’t uncovered Whilst we agree over the scent of fresh sheets Your fiancé would be shocked to see You dirty these bed sheets with me My girlfriend would scream and shriek If she saw you with me, Let me send this text, Then I’ll get back to pleasing you right Before you look up at the spark in my eye Tease me baby, stroke my ego Enough to break her heart with a lethal dose We love them both, but lust controls Were suffocated, but you love to choke Choke you out, throw you around Hold it in your mouth then I’ll throw you out Kiss me, goodbye, kiss them, Hi Back to the reality of a normal life Trying to shrug of the guilt of last night Who does the cuckold life satisfy?
We could be living together the girl next door, could have been mine if we weren’t living apart if miles never kept us stretched so wide but if true love conquers all why did we lose the fight? The distance in between stretched you from my heart we dreamed a dream of schemes but the love in the letters, wouldn’t last if it wasn’t for the houses in between we could have built that house of ours
When I referred to her as the love of my life I genuinely believe it was not another lie Confessions but so far from cleansing a soul Revelations, in hindsight I bet she wished and hoped She didn’t know She thought she knew me completely What turned me on but the truth is uneasy That unopened closet must be so hard to stomach Now I’m trying to find a way to bring her comfort She didn’t know A little too late, but I promised my honesty Ask me anything, I’ll answer you properly It was never my intention to bare facedly deceive If you doubt anything, I hope that’s the part you believe I’m sorry, you didn’t know I never should have lied to you at all I know it was never right to let you fall I hid my skeletons and abused your trust Trying to barricade that closet door shut So, you wouldn’t know I came clean and revealed a part of me Thinking honesty would kick start our heart beat I thought we could start fresh with the truth How was I to know you’d never accept what you knew? I didn’t know
I’m a criminal, I broke the law I’m a sinner, my head hits the floor I left her laying there, dead to the world The night of her life, left her in a living hell My deceitful lies bled like tears from her eyes When she saw the truth behind my ugly disguise I play the gentleman as I break hearts Scratch numbers into my bedpost, let the counting start She thanks me for building her broken confidence Smiles at every premeditated compliment As she stares point blank down the barrel And every insecurity she has, starts to unravel I’m a monster as I abuse her beauty And use her loyalty to convince her she can’t lose me Agree to every one of her future plans As she tells everyone, she’s found a man Convinced I’m the one who’ll stick by her Make her believe that I’m not another liar The truth is I only ever planned to hurt her And find a way to get away with premeditated murder
Tributes lined my timeline It served to remind, in life we die And one day I might wake to find You didn’t find your way out of tonight I might not get the chance to reply To the numerous times, you messaged me like Hi, I hope you’re alright? So, I’d like to say, I’m fine today And it doesn’t seem likely to change Moods fluctuate and as down as I may I manage to awake with a smile on my face Forgive the pain, it’s been whisked away I wish I could stay, tell you all about my day But that’s all I can to say If we don’t get the chance to speak I’m sorry, we never could agree I wish we had a chance to repeat Every chance we seemed to contravene To rebuild the friendship we turned weak When we decided to fall in love so deep But I hope we can rest in peace
I had a picture in my wallet But I got drunk one night and lost it I found comfort in a lost prophet As I tried to capture an image of it It had your crystal-like eyes And a smile that made December shine A snapshot of a moment in time Those beautiful eyes, that opened mine The portrait of an idea conceived There’s more to life than an angry teen I never did believe in make believe But your picture made me see I had a picture in my wallet But I got drunk one night and lost it